Whenever things are going slowly, or when I’ve backed away from a story because it feels particularly hot and I’m afraid to look it directly in the face for fear of failing it, I start thinking about everyone who has ever said anything shitty to me, whether in the form of knowing it was a shitty thing they were doing, or concern- trolling, as you do.
My ability to remember all these things is not a best practice. It’s not advice for excelling, or for forward movement. It’s not like how I’m good at remembering people’s names. It’s not interesting or useful. It’s nothing but a stumbling block, to be placed and removed, placed and removed, repeat, repeat, repeat.